dear diary,
this is the 3rd entry i've posted today. seems like a lot of thoughts that have collecting on my mind yet i couldnt find the time or the energy to jot it down here. i cant find the right words to describe impt things that have occur on prev days. i try hard to reminises those pleasant memories ah- still hard to get it back. i find that sad and sorrowful days are days where i blog endless entries to relieve grief.
but today is a different feeling. there's a stir in my heart. some days like today i seems to recover my other soul. is at such days, i make people feel loved and they love me back the same way. i feel a sense of power like i could influence feelings and thoughts usually to the one close to my hearts. like what he says "when your good, your really good" yap! likewise "when i'm bad i guess i'm really bad". i know how to love but i tend to forget it because i dont see it as an important aspect of my daily life anymore. but everyday needs abit of love to carry on. like hope. this love is a different one from me and him. but is self love and love the world. yes, i hope i see this world as beautiful and lovely. it isnt that bad after all. is when i take things in my life seriously put some effort into it. straighten out things and allow my thoughts to flow freely.feel some contentment and live my life to the max. there i know i am happy with my life and i can put a big smile on my face to face any challenges in my life now. i can. i believe i can and no one can stop me not even anyone who delibrately wanna spoil my day by insults or criticism.
see such passing remarks like an advice - be it bad or good - dont listen to it all. always strive for improvement. yeap! i'm all determine to go all the way....weeeeeeeeeeeee